Lake Arrowhead, CA
November 5th, 2009
It became apparent to me last friday night when I went to bed at 1am and woke up at 2am with my mind racing and anxiety, that I needed to get away. It’s not very often that I feel like my heart is going to pop out of my chest. Thankfully, we have a friend who loaned us their cabin with less than 24 hrs notice.
While up here, I have been able to refresh a bit. The first day I was just exhausted. I couldn’t focus on ready, journaling, even sleeping. Since then, I have been able to get my thoughts out of my head on paper. I have been able to draw to get all of my conceptual thoughts. I have made a list of things to pray about which includes well over 12 very large and critical items. That’s a lot to pray about so I have decided to just trust. I’ve decided that God will work everything out. I’ve laid out my concerns and he can do with them what he will.
Leah and I have had some great conversations after Abel goes to bed:
- We went through a spiritual gifts book
- I shared with her some of the dynamics (stresses) of my job (including some of my diagrams)
- We realized that we’ve both kind of stopped believing that our prayers actually do anything
- We’ve connected and dreamed about our futures
It has been great to get away from “normal” life. I think every person needs to get away to get an outside perspective on everything.
Peace.
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